Whelp it's been almost a year since my last update so it seems like I may be due for a new post. I could say that I've been too busy to post and that work has been taking up most of my time but you and I both know that's just bullshit and lets be honest, you've heard the excuses before. Now please forgive me if this post seems dissimilar to some of my others but The Coffin Chronicle has always been meant to be a bit of therapy session for me and... well sometimes therapy sessions get loud and angry.
Lately people have been asking me if I am okay or if I'm feeling alright and the answer is no I am not. I am far from alright and I certainly don't feel well. I don't feel right about my station in life right now and when I think about the fact that I am twenty-five, still live with my parents and have contributed virtually nothing to society worth while I feel physically ill. I have quit everything I have everything I have ever started. I dropped out of high school, I dropped out of college and quit every job I've ever had! I even consistently quit my very own blog which if you are reading this you are already aware of.
The only thing that has been consistent in my life is video games. I have been a gamer for as long as I can remember. My earliest memory of.. well anything is sitting on my bunk bed with my dad and my brother playing Super Mario Bros. 3 for the NES. I think that the reason I love video games is because they allow me to escape into a reality that is in a lot of ways better than my own. When I'm playing Shadow of The Colossus I'm not some pathetic loser who can't get a date. I'm a man who will topple giants and take on unreal odds to save the love of his life. This is also the reason I'm so critical of bad games. If I can't get immersed in the experience and the world that the developer is trying to make for me than I'm just stuck here in real life, and real life can be painful. This is also the reason I've decided to go back to college. Hopefully, I won't drop out again. I'm going to become a video game developer. If I can help somebody else escape their shitty reality and feel better even for a little while than maybe I can stop feeling so shitty myself.
I hope this entry wasn't too depressing for everyone but if you made it this far thank you, sincerely thank you. I wanted this to be a short post just to let everyone know I'm not dead but I guess I had a lot of stuff to get off my chest. I know I said earlier that I continuously quit this blog but I would never stop doing this for good. The Coffin Chronicle will always be here no matter what.
